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When Good News is Hard to Hear

As I groggily woke from surgery, I immediately wanted the answers I couldn't get before. How many incisions were made in my abdomen? How much endometriosis did the doctor find? When the nurse told me I had one incision and the surgery was only 45 minutes instead of the expected 90 minutes, my heart broke. I knew in that minute that I didn't have endometriosis. That the massive amounts of blood I lost each month, the pain each time I had intercourse, the unexplainable fatigue and stomach issues were not the result of a common disease that could be temporarily fixed with surgery every few years. Today at my post-op, my doctor assured me that not having endometriosis is a good thing. I just have heavy periods like my previous doctors said and I have some psychological issues with sex that could be cured with mental and physical therapy. Take a new birth control, try some at home exercises, and come back in six months. I should be happy, right? But I am not, I am still devastat
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Long Week Behind

Well, this week was quite the week. Between not having a car the first half of the week, failing my challenge every single day, and having stressful (and nearly impossible) deadlines to meet at work, I am not even sure how I survived. Oh, did I mention I also had a mini nervous breakdown? Yeah, I am very glad to say goodbye to this week. I keep hoping that the next day will get better, but right now, I am not so sure I even want to see the next day. If you know what I mean.  Today's Food:  Breakfast - Waffles and Natural Honey AM Snack - Chips and Gummies  Lunch - Tuna Sandwich and Apple  PM Snack - Cookies and Chocolate  Dinner - Sushi and Wine Today's Habits: Creativity - N/A Reading - N/A Self-Care - N/A Sweets - See above Vitamins - No Today's Overview: My day was spent working, walking the dog, or talking. This evening we had dinner with the couple that leads our bible study. It was nice to have time with them one-on-one

Test Drive

Last year, my husband joined the wait list for the Tesla Model 3. Last week, his current car (the one he would sell before purchasing the Tesla) started acting up. My current car is super tiny and I have been feeling unsafe in it since the spring of 2016. In case my husband's car didn't make it, we devised the plan to sell my husband's car as is, purchase a used SUV with the money, and have him drive my car until the Tesla was ready and we could sell my car.  So, our search for the SUV began today. We started by narrowing down by make and model. We drove SUVs from Honda, Mazda, Chevy, and Kia. I thought I would fall in love with the Honda CRV but actually, I am now leaning towards a Kia Sportage. I hate driving but it was fun to try out new cars, even if two of the three salesmen were duds.  While we were out and about, my husband took me to my favorite restaurant for my favorite dish. Unfortunately, the cooks were off their game today and it didn't taste the s

Sleeping In

Please give me a moment to brag about my husband. Last night was a rough night for me, I have been having those a lot lately. Since it is a weekday, my alarm buzzed at 6:45 AM. Instead of waking up, I managed to roll over and sleep until being woken by my husband at 7:30 AM. Since I was sleeping, he woke up a half-hour early to walk and feed the puppy so I could rest. I was completely blown away by his generosity. That extra bit of sleep really helped my day! Oh, and happy Friday the 13th! What I ate: Breakfast : Cereal with Almond Milk Morning Snack : Banana Lunch : Cold-Cut Sandwich Afternoon Snack : Hummus and Crackers Dinner : Pasta and wine Daily goals: Vitamins : No Creativity : Reading : Self-Care : Shower Sweets : 1/2 Chocolate Gator Today's overview: To celebrate puppy's half-birthday tomorrow, we took her to the dog park with a friend. It was nice to be outside some however, I didn't get as many steps as usual since I missed our morning and e

Slow Like a Sloth

Getting out of bed this morning was tougher than normal. My alarm went off at 6:45 AM, like every weekday morning, and my goal is always to be awake, dressed, and out the door with Puppy by 7:00 AM. Well today, we were out the door at 7:15 AM... Things picked up a bit at work. I tagged along on a Starbucks run with two co-workers and my boss. It was nice to get some steps in and talk to everyone outside of the office's walls. I even saw a friend from church while getting the coffee. I didn't buy anything, yay me! The afternoon went pretty smoothly. I had a meeting that took almost an hour and a half which made the day go by faster but also drained my introvert tank down near zero. Sometimes it's hard to keep my tank full at work since I share my office and constantly have to interact with extremely extroverted coworkers. I wish there was an app to help, LOL!  Here is what I ate today : Breakfast: Kashi Honey Cereal with Almond Milk Morning Snack:  half bagel w

Hit Refresh, Again

Since finishing Challenge 1 last year, I have been struggling to restart another challenge. It seems that no matter what I do, nothing is as motivating as Challenge 1. The past few weeks have been the worst. I have even been struggling to walk our (nearly) 6-month-old puppy every day. I cannot say no to the dish of mini chocolate bars at reception or the bags of mini cookies in the kitchen. I find myself ordering comfort food every time we go out and splurging on dessert each time we are at a social function. Lately, I have been researching Daily Burn and Noom because even paying for my monthly gym membership isn't encouraging me to go. I know that signing up for Daily Burn and/or Noom won't be the magic answer, but maybe spending a little extra money will light a fire under my ever-growing hips? But one thing is for sure, things have not been the same since I stopped blogging daily. I started a new degree in January and to help, my husband is selling my desktop computer and

The Sun is Starting to Shine

The new year has been rocky. I had so many hopes that when the clocks turned from 2017 to 2018, everything would be better. But nine days into 2018, I feel like things are worse than ever. Despite this emotional and difficult start, I have managed to maintain my New Years resolution of eating few calories per day (no more than 1200) and cutting out sweets. I even have started working out again! Here is what I ate: Breakfast : protein waffles and honey Snack : Babybell mini and whole-wheat blueberry fig bar Lunch : chicken sandwich with Colby-Jack cheese Snack : local pecans Dinner : leftover salmon and salad I have been using My Fitness Pal to track my food intake and FitBit to track steps and exercise. Since starting at the Red Company, I have taken up Bullet Journaling as a creative outlet and emotions tracker. Each day, I track my daily habits (most of which I don't reach, but I try), emotions, and high, low, thanks, and thought. For January, my theme is champagne so I