As I groggily woke from surgery, I immediately wanted the answers I couldn't get before. How many incisions were made in my abdomen? How much endometriosis did the doctor find? When the nurse told me I had one incision and the surgery was only 45 minutes instead of the expected 90 minutes, my heart broke. I knew in that minute that I didn't have endometriosis. That the massive amounts of blood I lost each month, the pain each time I had intercourse, the unexplainable fatigue and stomach issues were not the result of a common disease that could be temporarily fixed with surgery every few years. Today at my post-op, my doctor assured me that not having endometriosis is a good thing. I just have heavy periods like my previous doctors said and I have some psychological issues with sex that could be cured with mental and physical therapy. Take a new birth control, try some at home exercises, and come back in six months. I should be happy, right? But I am not, I am still devastat
Well, this week was quite the week. Between not having a car the first half of the week, failing my challenge every single day, and having stressful (and nearly impossible) deadlines to meet at work, I am not even sure how I survived. Oh, did I mention I also had a mini nervous breakdown? Yeah, I am very glad to say goodbye to this week. I keep hoping that the next day will get better, but right now, I am not so sure I even want to see the next day. If you know what I mean. Today's Food: Breakfast - Waffles and Natural Honey AM Snack - Chips and Gummies Lunch - Tuna Sandwich and Apple PM Snack - Cookies and Chocolate Dinner - Sushi and Wine Today's Habits: Creativity - N/A Reading - N/A Self-Care - N/A Sweets - See above Vitamins - No Today's Overview: My day was spent working, walking the dog, or talking. This evening we had dinner with the couple that leads our bible study. It was nice to have time with them one-on-one