As I groggily woke from surgery, I immediately wanted the answers I couldn't get before. How many incisions were made in my abdomen? How much endometriosis did the doctor find? When the nurse told me I had one incision and the surgery was only 45 minutes instead of the expected 90 minutes, my heart broke. I knew in that minute that I didn't have endometriosis. That the massive amounts of blood I lost each month, the pain each time I had intercourse, the unexplainable fatigue and stomach issues were not the result of a common disease that could be temporarily fixed with surgery every few years. Today at my post-op, my doctor assured me that not having endometriosis is a good thing. I just have heavy periods like my previous doctors said and I have some psychological issues with sex that could be cured with mental and physical therapy. Take a new birth control, try some at home exercises, and come back in six months. I should be happy, right? But I am not, I am still devastat...
Well, this week was quite the week. Between not having a car the first half of the week, failing my challenge every single day, and having stressful (and nearly impossible) deadlines to meet at work, I am not even sure how I survived. Oh, did I mention I also had a mini nervous breakdown? Yeah, I am very glad to say goodbye to this week. I keep hoping that the next day will get better, but right now, I am not so sure I even want to see the next day. If you know what I mean. Today's Food: Breakfast - Waffles and Natural Honey AM Snack - Chips and Gummies Lunch - Tuna Sandwich and Apple PM Snack - Cookies and Chocolate Dinner - Sushi and Wine Today's Habits: Creativity - N/A Reading - N/A Self-Care - N/A Sweets - See above Vitamins - No Today's Overview: My day was spent working, walking the dog, or talking. This evening we had dinner with the couple that leads our bible study. It was nice to have time with the...