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Hard Choices

Before the 2016 presidential election, I read Hilary Clinton's book, Hard Choices. A memoir stating the reasons and events behind some of the most important decisions she made while serving President Obama, the book showed readers that you cannot judge a choice by the outcome. Right now, I feel like writing the same book so everyone around me can understand my upcoming choice.

My hard choice is should I keep selling LuLaRoe or should I leave? I joined LuLaRoe because I feel in love with the way their clothing kept my body comfortable during IBS flare-ups. However, the pressure of selling is causing my IBS to flare-up. Now I am left wondering if I should leave or stay and fight? Do I even have something worth fighting for?

The stress of this decision is making me physically sick. But maybe it is not the decision, just that I have not left LuLaRoe yet. I am not sure. All I know is that since starting LuLaRoe my husband and I have less adventures, I have less true friends, and my life feel more chaotic than before. Most of that is being compensated by food and self-destructive thoughts.

Here is what I ate today:

Breakfast - oatmeal and nuts
Lunch - leftover chili from McAlister's
Afternoon Snack - peanut butter crackers and frozen bananas
Dinner - Morning Star Chix Patty on whole wheat bun, rice crackers, and Gatorade

Today was a rough day as my body is not feeling normal. I still agree with my thoughts yesterday that it could be related to my food intake.  A migraine slammed me down in the afternoon. I skipped the gym and went home and slept. Hopefully the nap and early night will help this go away.

Over and Out,
The Girl with IBS

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